Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Today the acting run thru

Today was quite good. We made some progress in performance with the actors.

I was quite surprised by Shaye's performance. I believe she can really pull it off.

Sad, I never get the chance to fully tell her that I was impressed by her performance.

Does she like me? Why is it that every time I wanna say thank you to her, she always not smile?

Sive is making an effort as well, although not obvious but she will get there.

That laugh i had during the rehearsal today (she holds the lily flower to Sive and delivers the clich├ęd line­čśĆ) was the one i had in months. and the first time i laughed in directing in the past 10 years. 

I could almost feel the same cathartic feeling i had when i was shooting random videos with my friends when i was 13 years old.

That is the only reason i want to direct movies, but that feeling seems never coming back now...

Maybe i should let the group know how i felt today how i appreciate they are on board rather than confronting the actors by myself..

Monday, March 26, 2018


Suning: It has to be the end now. I don't want any more of this.

Suning: The past two days has been killing me. This unhealthy practice can't go on like this.

Suning: I have already confronted Nolwazi, I don't have any more energy, so let this be the end.

Guanyin Bodhisattva: Let this be the end then.

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Thursday, March 8, 2018

March 9, Mom's birthday

It is so sad... and its March now getting colder this morning....drizzling....

I have low confidence in myself, so does my crew members...

This film is getting stuck.

I don't know what I m gonna do... can someone please help me...?!

Mariana, in the deepest trench on earth.... my Eve

Monday, March 5, 2018

This is my film!

A sense of responsibility came thru to me today. Feeling invigorated. I got to make this film happen beautifully. I can't depend on my producers to organize events anymore. I have to be proactive.

So I m gonna stop any procrastination, like sleeping in the afternoon.

Otherwise this film may well end up like any other AFDA films i directed.

This is the only way.

And Kim.